WHAT IS HAPPINESS..

Trying to figure out what is that makes me happy ..is it love..is it happiness of others..is it food..is it a new piece of jewellery you have been yearning for..or is it just the beautiful creatures in the universe..at times the very sight of the sunrise at 5 am gives me so much pleasure and there is a feeling of total submission to  nature. The moment I see my little adopted dog, coming towards me wagging his tail, my heart bursts with affection !!..When my babies hug me out of the blue, it makes me happy..they tell me.’’ Mom, you are the best’’, and I am elated..

But I am still searching for happiness and it makes me wonder why..what is that I am seeking?..dont I have everything I need..I have the best family around me who loves me unconditionally..I have my friends who truly care for me..I have my wonderful life to look forward to..so many more milestones to achieve..but there are moments when I feel utterly alone and my self esteem is at its worst..such low phases gets me thinking as to who I am ..what am I??..a seeker of happiness..dont everybody seek that pleasure..so whats so different in me..am I not being a normal human being,for whom peace of mind and a happy heart is all that matters.

I am a person who bottles up a lot inside me..when am sad and upset,I dont tell anyone,I cry in my own solitude...when am happy I don’t dance and sing,I laugh in my own solitude..when am angry,I don’t shout and scream..i just remain silent and most of the times my tears do the talking for me..again always in solitude..yes I do tend to get jealous  when I feel I don’t get the attention I deserve..and I am possessive about my loved ones..YES I AM A NORMAL WOMAN..:))

In every sense of the world,I always thought happiness is to love and to be loved..in life and love ,one tends to give more than what you get and there are  expectations and with that comes disappointments.. that’s when a bell rings in your ‘loony’ head..its time to move on and do what “make you happy’’..

To be happy in life,its very important to tie it to a goal ,not to people and things. A goal inspires and motivates you to achieve what makes you happy and with that comes contentment in life. Happiness depends on your inner disposition and can never be achieved by outside conditions..Happiness is always possible..at times we wait for it come along and take charge of your life..NO..you have to be open to happiness and for that sometimes you have to let go off somethings  you are holding onto, which you think will make you happy,but they don’t…I have found my own niche' in painting,which allows me to open up to a larger horizon in life,gets my creative outflow to attain peace.

Happiness is a conscious choice..people can be happy as much as their minds want to be..so I have decided to be open about lot of things in my life, be it love,or understanding or even hardships..everything happens in your life with a purpose..you fall in love with a purpose, you create a family, again its for a purpose..just realise being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect..we learn to be happy within the imperfections in our life..so why not learn to enjoy the little things that come your way and be happy..there are so many of them!!!

Instead of you seeking happiness ,happiness will come looking for you..to be happy we just have to appreciate what we have and not go looking for things that are beyond your reach which can never be yours, how much ever we want it..

So a note to myself..’’Ask yourself what makes you come alive..and seek that for happiness’’..As someone quoted,Happiness is a journey,not a destination..