The Moon God..

Looking out of my window last night, saw the whole sky bathed in a glow..

Wondering what it was rushed out to see the most amazing sight I have ever seen..The Moon in his complete splendour..I say ‘his’ because ,according to Hindu mythology, the moon belongs to the male species..:)..and we women find him enticing!!

Thought of capturing the beauty in my camera..but I told myself, gaze at it long enough to click the image with your heart..and its still there in my pretty little head..

Being a cancerian,,and the moon being a prominent feature in my star ,I am told,I should have typically behaved in a strange manner at the sight..I simply watched him playing hide and seek with the dark clouds, his ethereal beauty spreading the talons of magical light all over. Down below the sea shimmered in the glow, the little dark waves excitedly rushing towards the land, the small boats bobbing up and down in absolute rhythm..the single tree on the edge of the cliff swaying in the wind like a belly dancer in a trance..

I remembered my beloved, wanted him to share the magical moment with me, called out to him and together we reminisced the beautiful divine times we had experienced, gazing at the moon, hands entwined..unmindful of everything around you, had eyes only for each other, enjoying the tranquility of the moments spent in each other's company..holding on to every second of being together...

He does it to me all the time..he turns me into a hopeless romantic every time I set my eyes on him, making my heart burst into flames of yearning and passion..waiting for those magical moments I want to cherish, leaning towards him with emotional fervor and wanting to surrender to him completely..Aah..My tender Moon God..:)..and yes its true, I do behave strangely in his presence!!

WHAT IS HAPPINESS..

Trying to figure out what is that makes me happy ..is it love..is it happiness of others..is it food..is it a new piece of jewellery you have been yearning for..or is it just the beautiful creatures in the universe..at times the very sight of the sunrise at 5 am gives me so much pleasure and there is a feeling of total submission to  nature. The moment I see my little adopted dog, coming towards me wagging his tail, my heart bursts with affection !!..When my babies hug me out of the blue, it makes me happy..they tell me.’’ Mom, you are the best’’, and I am elated..

But I am still searching for happiness and it makes me wonder why..what is that I am seeking?..dont I have everything I need..I have the best family around me who loves me unconditionally..I have my friends who truly care for me..I have my wonderful life to look forward to..so many more milestones to achieve..but there are moments when I feel utterly alone and my self esteem is at its worst..such low phases gets me thinking as to who I am ..what am I??..a seeker of happiness..dont everybody seek that pleasure..so whats so different in me..am I not being a normal human being,for whom peace of mind and a happy heart is all that matters.

I am a person who bottles up a lot inside me..when am sad and upset,I dont tell anyone,I cry in my own solitude...when am happy I don’t dance and sing,I laugh in my own solitude..when am angry,I don’t shout and scream..i just remain silent and most of the times my tears do the talking for me..again always in solitude..yes I do tend to get jealous  when I feel I don’t get the attention I deserve..and I am possessive about my loved ones..YES I AM A NORMAL WOMAN..:))

In every sense of the world,I always thought happiness is to love and to be loved..in life and love ,one tends to give more than what you get and there are  expectations and with that comes disappointments.. that’s when a bell rings in your ‘loony’ head..its time to move on and do what “make you happy’’..

To be happy in life,its very important to tie it to a goal ,not to people and things. A goal inspires and motivates you to achieve what makes you happy and with that comes contentment in life. Happiness depends on your inner disposition and can never be achieved by outside conditions..Happiness is always possible..at times we wait for it come along and take charge of your life..NO..you have to be open to happiness and for that sometimes you have to let go off somethings  you are holding onto, which you think will make you happy,but they don’t…I have found my own niche' in painting,which allows me to open up to a larger horizon in life,gets my creative outflow to attain peace.

Happiness is a conscious choice..people can be happy as much as their minds want to be..so I have decided to be open about lot of things in my life, be it love,or understanding or even hardships..everything happens in your life with a purpose..you fall in love with a purpose, you create a family, again its for a purpose..just realise being happy doesn’t mean everything is perfect..we learn to be happy within the imperfections in our life..so why not learn to enjoy the little things that come your way and be happy..there are so many of them!!!

Instead of you seeking happiness ,happiness will come looking for you..to be happy we just have to appreciate what we have and not go looking for things that are beyond your reach which can never be yours, how much ever we want it..

So a note to myself..’’Ask yourself what makes you come alive..and seek that for happiness’’..As someone quoted,Happiness is a journey,not a destination..

SHACKLES..

He heard the crying,loud and clear,coming from the depths of darkness..looking around him,he was blinded by the blackness of the night..the angst and pain in the voice shook the very core of his heart..he realized it was his own..

He wondered why the voice was so full of sadness and despair..searching for an anchor to clutch on, the need so evident..

His mind catapulted to the very existence of the being..where was he when he needed him the most, why was he silent amidst the chaotic beating of the heart..??

Full of anticipation , he moved on..holding on to his faith in the supreme being, the light to shine  and show him the path to hope..

But he could move no further, he was shackled by the chains of nothingness, his arms flaying to feel the blankness ..

What was his life worth..there was nothing he could do, but wait patiently for the magical touch of the being and bring meaning to all the cacophony surrounding him..

He had to persevere and endure the pain to find his way through the gloominess  that lay before him..to reach a gentler place ,full of beauty, love and faith..

Sunshine

He burst through the clouds, enveloping the whole with a warmth she couldn't fathom...

His wings spread out far and wide, his golden rays blooming every single flower that came his way,every hill and every spring crying out in ecstasy to be one with him...

Yet he wasn't happy..His eyes searched for her, trying to single her out in the vast Universe...His shine penetrated through the greens, the browns and the yellows...bringing to life every being that came his way...

Till he saw Her..She ,but a small particle in the Whole, reached out to him, yearning for his glow to touch her soul..his heart leapt with Joy..he had found her..he engulfed her with his Light and Love and his happiness knew no bounds...

He was One with her..he was one with his 'Sunshine'....